Don't Make Your Journey About Vengeance
It is easy to carry a lot of anger frustration and resentment for those who harmed you throughout your life, either because of what they did or didn't do. Because of these feelings it is also very easy to want to show everyone up, or to make them jealous, or to try and earn their love and admiration. All of these motivations will leave you empty at the end, and are not solid sources of motivation to seek continued self improvement